I haven’t read it yet but the title made me think of Diane right away. She has that attitude and I am trying to cultivate it.
We have had copious amounts of rain lately and even if it is not pouring buckets, the skies are sullen and overcast.
This bleak weather saps my energy. I feel just as dull and gray as the clouds overhead. I’m in complete agreement with bears and other hibernating creatures. My bed looks cozy and inviting and it is tempting to pull the blinds and tuck up under the covers with a few good books and a winter’s worth of chocolate. But I know, from experience, that’s not the remedy.
I was reading about the wedding feast at Cana in a devotional book the other morning. The writer began the devotion with the words
You are cordially invited
To share the joy of
A wedding celebration in Cana
As I read those words, this thought flashed through my mind “Lord, help me – I don’t want to go.”
An invitation to a feast with Jesus and I don’t want to go. I am too tired, dull and listless.
That invitation is extended to me every moment yet, even with many years of knowing Him, I still resist it when I am struggling.
Is it still the old story of the garden that makes me hide? Have I been trying to clothe myself in some kind of “got it all together” outfit?
Do I think that something else will work when what I feel is so clearly a problem of the soul?
Do I realize that I am completely accepted – whether sad or broken or restless or worried? Do I somehow imagine that He would berate me? Do I think that the King of Love would look at me and say “Oh this is the appreciation I get – I give you everything and you feel sad (or worried or angry or bored)?”
Do I not grasp that He loves me just as I am
just as I am
just as I am?
Have I not heard His call saying “I know all the reasons for your sorrow- great and small. I know your deepest yearnings – your desires – your longings to be more than you are. I know your weaknesses – your failings – your sins. I know them. I have loved you – I will love you – with an everlasting love. I am inviting you. Come here to the One who knows and understands – to the One who has the remedy for your soul.”
I have heard it.
I am hearing it.
Father – help me come to you simply – as I am – without pretext – ready to receive from Your hand all that I need – strength for today – hope for tomorrow. Let me find in You the light that outshines the sun.